I have been staring at a blank screen for about three hours now. I want to write something, I need to write something, and nothing is happening. My mind is as blank as the computer screen. It is nothing but a blinking cursor mocking me.
I have felt like this a lot of late. It is apparent in the lack of posting that has been happening. Between faire and life I have just been completely wiped out. I am so incredibly tired that writing is one of the harder things for me to do just now. Writing and cleaning. Writing and cleaning and sleeping.
You would think that with as tired as I am sleep would come more easily. You would think wrong. I recently got a FitBit and one of the things it does is monitor your sleep. It tells you how long you were in bed, how long you slept while in bed, how often you woke up and for how long your remained awake.
After two weeks of logging my sleep I can tell you that on average I wake up 11 times a night. The worst night I had I woke up 26 times in a 9 hour period. The average length of time I remain awake is 7 minutes. On average I spend 8 and a half hours in bed. On average I only sleep 4 hours and 45 minutes a night. I normally do not sleep for longer than 45 minutes at a time and I normally only get three long stretches of sleep in the night, the rest are short bursts between waking up.
No wonder I am always so damn tired. I don't even sleep when I manage to sleep.
I am not sure that there is anything for it. I am not a fan of sleep aids as I have never felt rested after using any. They also effect me more than they should. Eight hours of solid sleep you say? Try nineteen hours of unconsciousness followed by feeling exhausted and hung over. No thank you. I will take my scattered 4 and a half hours of sleep any night over that.
Once faire is over I will be able to rest more and hopefully will not feel quite so exhausted. That would be nice. I will really enjoy not feeling so run down all the time.